December 31, 2004
i havent been exactly in the mood to blog recently.not as faithful as my sisters.
lots of events have passed: my birthday, christmas, drama.
some good.some bad.some interesting.some boring.some enlightening.some disappointing.but overall.it has been a good end to the year.
i love all u guys lots.
Michelle called at
1:32 PM
December 21, 2004 krys: those phd holders and sports & recreation people are meant for us to know and for others to find out.haha.
anyway.i was at the hospital just now.i finally felt the pain for my granny.there were seriously dozens of tubes in and out her.there were at least 2 on her chest to drain the fluids in the thorax.or at least that was what 2 noisy and huge machines mentioned they were used for.n then there were loads of others sending intravenous fluids into her through some vein in the neck.its torturous just looking at her.she bloated/swelled to twice her size.no exaggeration.
she woke up n i can tell shes in pain.she just kept shaking her head..as if she just wanna give up.i have no choice but to keep encouraging her.it hurts big time.but i have to be the support.
im always the support.since i was a kid.i was the support for my mum.my sisters.my friends.
jesus said i can take up his burden instead.but i have never had the courage to give him mine.
just a digress:if you guys wanna complain about me..do it in my face.stop doing it behind my back..to my sisters or even on blogs.its just such cowardice acts that put me off.
Michelle called at
11:32 PM
i think i've been hit by a bout of melancholicsm.
Michelle called at
4:14 PM
December 20, 2004
a lot has happened.im kinda hurt when i read it again.its meant to be an apology.but..(theres always a but) more exhortation and self righteousness.thats roughly the accusation against me in a nutshell.but i see a lot of people protecting me.so i just wanna say i love you guys lots.esp kenneth.yar.he was the first that stood by me.thanx bro.
i have a feeling this is the granny-hospitalised season.but in any case.like what my mummy said..if God has even bothered to bring the person all the way to the hospital to be healed..he'll recover.
Michelle called at
1:34 AM
this is one of the nights where i suddenly feel lonely.
i need someone to talk to.somewhere that understands the full situtation.but..no one but God understands everything.
somehow i just cant tear myself from this screen.
Michelle called at
1:00 AM
December 11, 2004
woah.i can type my blog in chinese.haha.so cool right.new function of blogger that i learnt.
好棒哦!
so act cute right.hahaha.
oh yar.u hafta change ur encoding to chinese simplified if not it will just turn out gibberish.heh.
Michelle called at
11:03 PM
December 10, 2004
a lot of people have been bugging me to blog..including my own conscience.i wanted to blog last nite (08dec) and when i was in taiwan..but i never got to it.im determined to churn it out this time.
taiwan trip was really fantastic.made so many new friends,impacted so many lives,discovered so much about myself and learned a lot more than i gave.
the main people i really wanna thank are those who took care of us :-
pst abraham : he is so fatherly and cool and all.really exceptionally nice to us though we're just kids.but he likes to laugh about my braces and calls me a rabbit.oh.and his Q&A sessions are killers.
pst jenny : shes the youth pastor.real cool in her thoughts and dressing.super friendly.loves to huddle me n krys n anna.she laughs along with us but handles in the background.heh heh heh.all u dont think of escaping.
pst samuel aka jiao tou ge aka gangster : hes funny looking but real nice.haha.reminds me of a big panda.always making sure that we're alright..well-fed..etc.
pst joseph aka da shu aka uncle : he is funky and he has a super duper cute son.he punches his hands into the air when singing "one way,jesus".haha.
sister huifang : shes always asking us not to call her sis huifang or huifang jie cos she feels old when we call her that.heh.but she always brings breakfast for us..see us home and even joined our night market league.and she has a great shopper.all thanks to her that we managed to get gifts.n shes a rich tai tai.haha.
bro kevin : hes nice.he rides a bike.and hes got an extremely pretty girlfriend working at skII.haha.he occasionally brings breakfast to us too.
bro birdie : he seriously looks only 18 years old even though hes like 30 already.i was so in awe when i saw him cry at the leaders meeting.he looks funny in suit but hes really a zai leader.
bro eugene : hes charismatic i wont deny.even bro kel thinks hes good looking (thats creepy).he brings breakfast for us too.n he looks good in a suit.haha.
sister hongwei : shes in charge of the teenagers in the youth zone (the youth zone is 13-30 years old).super excited super nice.i think she was utterly impressed with us gabbling about fellowshipping with pastor thats why she always joined us for night market shopping even if shes got work the next day.she was so frantic when i lost my wallet.
yar.those are the basic people.
what i've done:-
challenged the youths : we all shared our testimonies..showing the people that they don't have to be afraid to rise up and take on leadership roles.i can see so mindsets being challenged and transformed.for example chongqing and xiaowei.when me and anna first asked them during lunch if they've ever thought of becoming a cell leader, all they said was impossible.but at the end of our trip,they just kept professing that they'll be cell leaders by the end of next year! hallelujah!
what have i learnt:-
compassion for the people: in the leaders meeting..i saw how birdie cried while sharing his testimony about his cell's members bringing in friends.i asked myself "when was the last time you cried over a soul?".all these months of hard work has just been done mechanically.mon tues are follow up days thurs is attendance day etc.but there..i saw how much they treasured each soul.
you get what you expect : i've heard this million of times.but it was at this trip that it really knocked into me.it seems like i've always been professing that ij and acjc are not open.i kept telling myself that they are catholic/christian schools and so are very hardened up.no wonder our friends always seem so hardened up.but now..im changing my perception.
have the same enthusiasm: when we were there..we were almost the most enthusiastic people around.jumping shouting talking to everyone.i was just even louder than i was in singapore (no wonder i lost my voice).me krys n anna agreed that we have to carry the same fire we have within us back to singapore.lets not be letargic anymore.
im sucha muddle head : i lost my wallet twice and my bag once.i was really depressed when i lost my wallet the 2nd time basically cos it wasnt mine.but also because like what pastor said "if you make the same mistake twice..you are plain stupid". im forcing myself to make a conscious effort not to lose my things.
in conclusion,i saw such hunger in the taiwanese youths.they need something but they just cant find it.
singapore youths..you have so much more.lets catch the fire.