March 31, 2003
sheesh.so tired.so drowsy.im coughing like mad recently.
just returned frm msia yesterdae aftnn.it was such a crap trip.wasted so much time waiting here and there.didnt even get to eat any nice local food.me and my sisters + my cousin had to eat hotel food while our parents went out for nice food.unfair.sheesh!!!i dont wanna go abroad with them animore.waste my time and energy only
sigh.cos of tis trip i wasted a bbq and a service.wish i could turn back time and not go for the trip.so tired.so many more songs to download.shall go off first
Michelle called at
9:29 AM
March 28, 2003
cool cool cool.im on a new comp.finally.i dont have to disconnect every 10 mins to make sure i can access webpages.muahahaha.im gonna treasure tis baby big time!!
i feels so dumb.i cant believe i actually went all the way back to school in the rain to collect that silly clarinet of mine.sheesh!haha.
im trying to download all my songs again.its quite silly.but i betta not transfer them from the old comp in case some silly virus spreads into tis new one.
i feel so speechless todae.mayb i will have more after 2ml's bbq.cya!
-sarsisgettingbetter-
Michelle called at
10:49 PM
March 27, 2003
went to shit.i wanted to replace that word with a bio term cos scared that pple mite respond to my way of speech.mayb im such a fakeo that i wear totally different masks at different occasions.sheesh.
my throat is so irritated.itchy itchy itchy.i kip going to the loo too.i tink i visit the toilet more than 4 times a dae.i feel sick.mayb im sick.i was reading bout some diseases in the reader's digest.haha.scared myself with all the wild imagination.freaky
just thinkin bout lots of the things in the toilet.i realised i tink a lot but act little.a really good example is my spiritual life.freak.i havent been feeling anithing for such a long time.i scared yet dont wanna do.i tink but no actions.im real real real scared i wud backslide.im actually feeling tired from the simple helpers jobs already.wads wrong with me?argharghargh.freak man.
im so tired of just takin things for granted.y is life so smooth flowing for me?i might b grumbling bout hardships..but i rather have them to truly train me and mould me up.y.
-yyy-
Michelle called at
11:16 PM
haha.didnt come for a really long time.the monitor was down.dad brought one from his office cos he needed the comp tonite.embezzlement ah.haha.
missed online.missed everything.missed peace.wad pauline reminded me last nite really struck me.mayb its really end days already.this sars crap and the war rubbish.wads wrong?everything is a freaking mess now.i feel disorganised in and out too.argh
its so rubbish.i feel my friendships are all not working.isit with me or wad?im only good with acquaintances and not real close frens.i really feel lonely watching my friends paired as best frens.xu and fe,mal and per + qi + cin.freak.im jus some little supporting role that jumps out in times of need.freak freak freak.
i feel so tired when i haf done so little.i dont wanna face up to alot of things.i noe i haf to waste a lot more energy if i wanna sort them out.im so spiritually down.i noe im in a bad shape but i sumhow have no signs of improvement.man.
stomachache now.shall rush to the toilet
Michelle called at
10:40 PM
March 20, 2003
woah.missed for a few days huh.haha.i actually wrote one tis morning.but dumb me forgot to press the post and publish button.so it was all gone.haha
i spent the morning arranging the pix and mashing the silly potatoes.haha.i was so tired after smashing jus one potato.i feel quite sad when arranging the pictures.i realised how little time i spent with my family and how things have changed.i was feeling so bad.things are supposed to change for the better but i have made mine change for the worse.sheesh.
went for cellgroup in the aftnn.i was ultra late.actually it was calculated.i kinda wanted to miss the waiting and the game.haha.but i still played a last round of murderer and i was discovered so quickly.lousy me.aniwae..today's message was on the languages of love.in order of merit..mine are quality time,words of affirmation,physical touch,acts of service and receiving gifts.haha.a typical girl's list la.haha.
had party after cell.ate so much.or so i thought.haha.i kept tempting that silly joseph to eat.his bdae was yesterdae!oh no.nid money to go and get the prezzie.at least i noe that he wants a bible.gotta get leila's too.i wanted to go roxy and get her some wallet or pencil case.but i decided to get her something else.muahhahaha.i shant reveal it here in case she reads tis blog.haha.
haha.i realised we can organise a woodwinds ensemble in the cellgroup!well.theres me the clarinetist,ee vien the baritone saxophonist,sarah lee another clarinetist and joanna [or isit joanne?] the flutist.cool!i shall send tis idea to the cellgroup.haha.
well.betta get to work now.must do some vocab practs.
i wanna miss band for prayer meeting tomorrow.should i?em..
-woodwind ensemble-
Michelle called at
7:50 PM
March 17, 2003
holy holy are you lord.
the whole world is filled with your glory.
let the nations rise to give.
honour and praise to your name.
let your face shine on us.
and the world will know you live.
all the heavens shout your praise.
beautiful is our god.
the universe will sing.
hallelujah to you our king.
-alltheheavens-
Michelle called at
10:11 PM
woah.tired tired.
i went so freaking early for band today.i look so ultra enthu for band.yeeeks.so embarrasing.i sent pau something so wrong.ah..i wuz embarrassed big time.but pauline got her retribution.hohohoho.shes so red.like some overcooked prawns.haha.serve her rite.
mum is irritating.she keep wanting to get the comp from that silly cheater.duno wads wrong with her.cant she just let couzie to get it?irritating la.
gotta go 4 cip tomorrow.sian man.i dun wanna do.
i wanna swim!i wuz supposed to go after math lesson today.but mr tan stretched it until bout 5 lor.my sisters all finished swimming even before i finished tt vs paper.sheesh.i dun care.i must swim tomorrow!!!
-swimswimswimswim-
Michelle called at
8:17 PM
March 16, 2003
sheesh.today was quite tiring.i went around to get that pathetic swimming costume.sheesh.
left the house late as usual.kept dilly-dallying.today's message rock man.its so ultra zai.went ntu for lunch.haha.the food so cheap n nice.yay.
wuz supposed to meet yuyi at woodlands.haha.duno y he thought im not goin.but nevermind.i dropped early to go northpoint instead.was supposed to get a swimming costume there.but all freakin ex.60 bucks for one lor.ended up in town to get it instead.
that silly don gave up his hike.sheesh.wuz pretty shocked to see lengkian n don at service.haha.
just ate a piece of ham cheese.its nice leh.its not ham+cheese.its ham-flavoured cheese.haha.i want more!
-hammycheese-
Michelle called at
7:35 PM
March 15, 2003
haha.im doin mask now.i feel so caked and wrapped up.haha.so fun.my sis-es and my mum all look so weird.shud take a foto man.sure win the ghosts of the year award.haha.so interesting.
-thinskin-
Michelle called at
8:53 PM
woah.im amazed.im actually quite persistent in my writing.i tink i wasnt even so consistent with my diary.haha.but its only third day lah.but i will die off in a few days.haha
today was a crap day.fe xu fion all didnt come band.that stupid mr chan scolded mal n me [indirectly at me la].showed attitude to all those pests in band.i bet them wanted to push me off the building.haha.that silly mr chan said that the band practs are written as tentative but is actually confirmed.piece of s**t.cant stand him.giving unreasonable and stupid excuses.
i finished sch so ultra early today.also didnt go for cellgroup.so my sat aftnn wuz really free for once.haha.but i went over to trellis towers to watch my sisters swim la.so sunny.i wanted to swim too.but my silly sister wore my swimming costume.i shall buy a new one tomorrow.i wanna swim too.jo decided to swim everyday.haha.must b determined to b out of taf la.
went shoppin with mummy too.got lotsa food.haha.can feast in the hols liao.y does everyone say that i talk very quickly [actually its only my aunt and my mum].if im fast wads mal?haha.my sisters also talk in the same way wad.mayb its all an ij thing la.
crap.so much to do in the hols.so little time.freak.
-tentativebutconfirmed-
Michelle called at
7:28 PM
March 14, 2003
came again to rebutt someone's reply to me.
WHY?CANNOT SAY MY PANTY DROPPING AH?haha.u lame-o.
i feel so silly
-sillymadger-
Michelle called at
10:15 PM
weird day.skipped so much band today.haha.
last day in that sch of ours.it looks so much cleaner and newer than that disgusting holding school.i dont wanna move.haha.played with the school band for that silly school song.i had to run straight from the gym to the band room there lor.my panties nearly dropped.so paiseh.band wuz super embarrasing too.that sissy sim asked us to do the "hiss" breathing exercise den the whole enthu band started to do that.5n wuz laughing so hard at us.sissy sim also didnt wait for jo teo to finish her speech den wanted to start the playing.i nearly wanted to kill myself.
went back to school to collect my things after dismissal.helped that silly xu to carry her load.nearly died from it.haha.went fiesta to eat lunch.im going to fast for the rest of the month la.totally broke liao.i used the money im supposed to buy sanitary pads and books to eat lor.die die die.
had cellgroup also.haha.ultra small group.only bout 8 as core.haha.but the atmosphere was excellent.i felt this weird feeling during the ministering.its as if i feel so cold outside but so warm on the inside.nice feeling though.haha.
-thenewmayneverbeasgoodastheold-
Michelle called at
9:15 PM
March 13, 2003
so irritated.this comp sux.when is edwin goin to get my comp.that lousy guy my mum got is out to cheat our money.stupid guy.i nid to bathe.so ultra oily n sticky n all.was too lazy to.freak
tomorrow got cell.must sell my tics before sarah and sally.hoho.going to force those pple to go right after service.so smart.at least the people wont get food poisoning like the acs(b) carnival.haha.
don and lengkian going for hike on sat.hope don dont get to exasperated with lengkian.what if he murders lengkian?haha.its lengkie's fault den.
-theoldneedstomakewayfornew-
Michelle called at
10:10 PM
first entry here.so difficult to choose the templates.wanted to choose something dark.but fe n pau had the nice ones already.tis is not bad too.today had half day.school gave a retarded excuse - we had creditable o levels results.actually is cos they r moving the things to that new sch.that new place totally sux.i dont wanna leave.i dont wanna go away.i dont wan that gross place.no!!!!
went town with jas xu fe n pau.so long since i went orchard.so much renovations polluting the air.yucks
tomorrow last dae in my beloved school compound.dont wanna leave
-onlyinmymemorieswillifindit-