July 31, 2003
feel sick.im having cramps.argh.never knew it could b so pain.was complaining all the way today.bought princess diaries.halfway through it.sian.so much to do.that wijaya aka vagina (thanx to qi.no idea how she got that name) is so dam arrogant.argh.somebody must insult him big time to let him get back to reality.his more handsome partner is back.everyone seemed to be in high spirits again.haha.even my sister is talking bout him.sheesh!
i contemplated not going to church on sundae.argh.how lazy can me get.pain pain pain.menses sux.argh
Michelle called at
8:14 PM
July 29, 2003
i just back from piano.not bad.merely got scolded for being too slow on the scales.cant play the notes properly.nails too long.ya.thats bout all.sheesh.
i saw a cat without one hind leg on the way back.so scary!i was just standing there and staring at it.haha.quite embarassing.but it was just so weird lor.
weirdo cats
Michelle called at
9:11 PM
im tearing.no no.im not sobbing ormourning or whatsoever.it just that i wanna sneeze but i cant!argh.
-sniff-
Michelle called at
4:57 PM
July 28, 2003
practiced the piano for over at hour.long time since i did something like that.haha.ms carol will be so pleased to hear that.
had 5 items today.failed 2 items.so sad!i failed the jump n the shuttle run.argh.the lousy hall floor was so freaking slippery lor.cant believe it.i failed shuttle run!hate myself.
went to mos with xu n fe for lunch.long time since we sat together and laughed our head off.haha.ate the chilli dog that i haf been urging for so long.yum.so juicy.only problem is i had to peel the bread off and dab it with the nice juicy sauce cos my braces make it difficult to eat.
oh yes.theres something i must add.its something i had thought of while waiting for mummy to pick me up at novena square.well.here it goes:
humans are really quick to categorize people by their first look.just take a mercs driving down orchard road for example.the busybody you craned your neck and peered through that window(what happened to the tint rich people love?) and you see the driver as such -
1. an old uncle with golden chains as thick as rock climbing ropes hanging down that neck that is too thick to be visible.rings as big as boulders are also weighing down on the 10 stubby fingers which ironically is on the lap when it could be on the steering wheel and show it off to anyone that passes by it.
em>type:probably slaved through his childhood and teens and twenties and thirties and forties and fifities (in other words his whole life lah) to scrimp and save for that little semi detached far away in some remote areas that is accessible only by bus 11 aka your legs.the car probably came from the collection of bonus points over the years by faithfully purchasing petrol from a certain kiosk which has only 0 branches and 1 headquarters.alright alright.this poor guy is probably boss of a contractor with 2 dim witted workers and makes up corny mottos to boost the morale of the company only have it inflated by the next deal he accepts (disasters are sure to happen).doesnt this remind you of some well known local personality?
haha.oh well.i actually got a lot more to add.but its getting late.i needa get my beauty sleep.so i shall bid farewell here and miss me not people!haha.will probably continue tomorrow..if im in the mood.
Michelle called at
10:07 PM
July 27, 2003
read some articles on oppositions of inner healing and even healing itself [particularly at christian harfouche].i feel quite sad bout how the christian family is attacking itself.they kept pinpointing that all these things have roots of occult or paganism or whatsoever.cant we use the things of the world for the good of the kingdom?since we have so much time complaining about what others are doing why dont we go out to the world out there to spread His Word since more than 1/3 of the world population still know nothing about the name Jesus.
Michelle called at
9:25 PM
i wept like never before today.the presence of god was so strong.i actually felt so dry throughout the whole dae.it was so bad tat i even thought i might backslide.it was like the spirit was willing but the body is weak.
Michelle called at
3:28 PM
July 25, 2003
band got silver.relieved but disappointed.could have gotten gold if we werent that anxious and stressed out.at least i got my A for cca already.haha.time passed so fast.my band life is finally over.
i think band would be more tolerable if not for some retards.actually i wonder who the retards are also.haha.
i needa start training for pft.most people ran for 2.4 today.all passed.i think im going to be the first to fail.die.die.die.
dinner at holland v tomorrow.yay.
Michelle called at
5:42 PM
July 24, 2003
im so mad.my mum refused to buy me a shoebag.she gave stupid reasons lor.the bag was so cheap only.irritating.
syf is tomorrow.i felt kinda scared just now.wonder how will things turn out.afterall ting's band got like silver though it was only their first time.sheesh.gold?i wonder.haha
i think those brats are organising something for the seniors.wonder whats going on.haha.but i dun care.i wanna get my nice shoebag.muahaha.
Michelle called at
9:13 PM
July 23, 2003
having a tummy ache now.i nid more money.i want to buy so much things.sb shoebag hairband english tys nice shirt.a lot a lot of things.nice but ex.argh.if only i had even more money.
im so gonna die for pft.die die die.wonder hows the result for syf today.sheesh.i wan gold.i wan the 10 course dinner.haha
Michelle called at
5:57 PM
July 21, 2003
i wanted to blog yesterdae.(tis sound like how i began my last entry) but my stupid computer took such a long time to bring me to blogger that i decided not to blog.
yesterdae's service was dam zai.i mean how often do you attend a service and have people being healed in the middle of it?haha.it was that cool.i feel regretful for not asking my grandaunt there.she could have gotten healed.christian harfouche is a very very good preacher.dam zai.haha.his laughter very farnee also.just like robin harfouche his wife.they haf the compatible laughter.haha.
oh well.lunch is here.shall get going
Michelle called at
3:12 PM
July 20, 2003
i wanted to blog last nite.but i decided that i better not anger my mum further in addition to my late return.
yep.had band in the morning.i woke up so freaking early.i couldnt really sleep after that.it was so irritating.but i finally went to bathe only 2 hours after i woke up.haha.too lazy.band was quite boring.only went through the pieces and things like that.i played lotsa wrong notes.am so gonna die on that dae.i hate the band comm.it sux.so much for looking after the welfare of the band.suckers.
didnt go for piano despite bringing my books.i betta make it on tuesdae.i somehow decided tat i wud b late if i went for piano.heehee.went walking around dhoby ghaut cos i thot cg will b meeting there though it specifically mentioned buona vista in the sms.how dumb of me.
anyway.jacklyn n jocelyn's house is dam power.that was where we had cg la.it is dam big and dam nice and very this very that.ya.you can imagine cant you.got swimming pool.a ktv.a suana!!ya.its just dam cool.i dam mind moving in with them.haha.
cg was very very powerful also.esp worship.i was suddenly seized by something and i just felt weird.its as if my hands were so heavy that they could not be lifted up to worship Him.i felt very torturous then.it was so painful.at first the feeling was just like what i had experienced before.little feelings of goosebumps on my hands.which werent very common.an once in a while experience.but yesterdae was just dam zai.i could feel that tickling feeling all over me.even in my head.ya.so i cried and cried and cried.it was just so wonderful.my fists were so clenched that it could not even release until bout 10 mins into sermon.haha.it was just so powerful.
fengkai sitting beside me was also crying pretty badly.i think she is quite new or shes a lukewarm christian.anyway i could hear and see her crying quite badly also.fengkai is a very cute sec 1 ger frm nygh.shes so cute that i dont mind having her as my sis.haha.but shes another rich kind la.her uncle is the minister of state.oh.come to think of it.i think the uncle is chan soo sen.the one that always comes to our church.mayb mayb.haha.wad a coincidence.
anyway.i had enough description of yesterdae.it was a powerful dae overall.even though it was only bout 20 mins.haha.but its more than enough.haha.oh well.i tink i gotta get ready for church.
Michelle called at
7:12 AM
July 15, 2003
im tearing very badly now.no no no.not because im upset or whatsoever.im just tortured by the fact that im on the verge of sneezing but it just cant explode out!try that yourself and see if you tear as much as the last time you broke up with your other half.*sob+sniff*
im going to die from this freaking flu.its terrible.i shudnt haf gone to school today.2/3 of our gang was missing lor.stupid perlynn didnt come cos of some stupid stomachache.stupid me stupid me.argh.
wonder if i shud skip school tomorrow.but what if i lag.den i will die.considering that im already doing so badly.ah.die la die la.
had a nice chat with jermyn just now.was telling each other our testimonies.His way is always higher than ours.n His love is always unconditional.i love Him man!
-muaks-
Michelle called at
10:15 PM
July 14, 2003
*sniff*.im sick.*sniff*.im down with flu.pretty evident.im feeling real cold too.i hope i will b so sick that i cant play for the competition next friday.muahahaha.but i think i will be dam dissappointed if that happened.afterall i practised for like at least 10 months already.but it will be quite funny if i keep sniffing and blowing my nose on stage.haha.wonder what will be the judges think.
anyway.i wrote a really long entry in the journal today.i practically wrote my heart out.i felt pretty light after penning my burden down.its quite cool.haha.though i still aint sure if i will show to anyone.haha
oh well.i shall go and help cin with her blog.i shall look for a nice fruity skin for her.haha
-sniff-
Michelle called at
9:27 PM
July 13, 2003
now i know how it feels to be aimless.its sux.cant believe i missed church again.i feel like shaking myself awake.whats wrong with me.am i losing the vision or wad?i feel horrible.
argh.
Michelle called at
4:02 PM
July 11, 2003
stupid bus.i waited like 1 hour for the dumb 851 k!i cant believe it.i should have taken like 162 and would have returned probably 1/2 earlier.dumb dumb dumb.
nothing interesting today.had band.quite sad.but we played a new piece.it was horrible.except the whole new world part.haha.i totally blanked out for like 1 pages lor.haha.just sat there and didnt even bother to figure out.so dumb.
im watching some show that has some dumplings.i wanna eat dumplings too.yum.especially with vinegar to go with it.haha.
anyway i was thinking bout greed when i was bathing this morning.and mind you it was like 0545.haha.im quite shock that i was actually in the right mind to think.i thought of what to write while the water was just splashing down my back.i think all the thoughts kinda dissappeared but i know how i thought lah.
i think im thinking too much (look.im thinking again).man.i should relax my mind.calm down michelle.*takes a deep breath&
-faints-
Michelle called at
7:13 PM
July 10, 2003
i felt dam irritated on the bus.argh.i had so much to complain k.i thought of this issue before and now its coming back to me all over again.has anyone ever wondered why does a bus packed till no one can board has little congestion right at the back of the bus?if u stand where i stood, right at the top of the slope at the end of the bus, you would have realised that the jam is focused on at the area between the 2 doors.whereas the area after the door is rarely packed and there is much space to just stand around and probably even dance.anyway i was so irritated at being right at the front and being packed like sardines when people right at the end were practically dancing and jumping around.thats exaggeration of couse.they would have fell and rolled all the way to front to knock us down like dominos if they really danced.yes.back to the story.i tried to poke my way all the way to the end and teaching those little pests in front of me a lesson by pushing my way and not bothered whether they were squashed against the poles or in danger of falling onto the poor person they were standing next to.as i made my way agressively, the thought of how selfish singaporeans are came to mind.we were talking about this issue this morning at cath class too.mrs alex was telling us how inconsiderate singaporeans are getting as they rush and rarely stopped to consider the feelings of the people around them.the same kind of resentment to such attitude just rose all the way to my head.i suddenly felt like just screaming to all those people who are at least 2 times elder than me and yet have less courtesy than even the 5 year old girl i was smiling at.im feeling quite restless as im writing this but i must vent all my thoughts lah.anyway my trail of thoughts then started to run like never before.issues starting to run over my head like the pages of a book being flipped quickly.i dunno what kind of analogy is that but nevermind.i guess everyone had the same mindset that if i stand near the door i would be able to get off easily.so everyone gets stuck at the exit door and no one with the "sensible" mind would wanna move in.i guess all the courtesy campigns have go to waste when even the simplest duty of a day evidently reflect the ugly side of the people.tsk tsk.i always thought that the chinese have very sophisticated ettiqute that i always read in the books.i guess it was all in the past.argh.this is certainly not a good change of the century.just as a.r. bernard had said:nothing in the world is evil.its the perversion of humans from the sins that cause everything to become perverted.love had became lust and organization became corrupted.what was so pure had now became filthy and twisted.argh.i have gone off track.
well.enough of rambling on that crap.there was a weird indian man who came to class to demonstrate some crap.we were so dumb.we actually stood up and greeted him lor.wad a joke.anyway he got chased by like 4 teachers.haha.dam farnee.there was something the uwc scholarships also.i wanna get the scholarship but it sounds hard.i mean..even gangwei couldnt get it lor.i was reading their website but they made it sound so easy.not good not good.but i dun wanna take the IB thing.hold on..as if im guaranteed that i can take rite.but who cares.the IB thing sounds bad.need to take both sciences and humanities lor.i totally suck in humanities.it is so evident in my mid year results.e8 k!!ya.mr tan got the shock of his life and said that i did miracle in 4/1.*blah*
i think greed is a really bad thing.i kinda see a lot of things that parents are attempting to teach their kids not to do at home and yet are doing something of the same principle that cause even more dire consequences.argh.stupid adults.
whatever.i felt sick of practical.i hate testing for gases.sucks.
-pract-
Michelle called at
6:13 PM
July 6, 2003
today's carnival was not bad.at least thats wad i thought.stupid allen just told mi tt pple frm his school sae it sux.stupid crap.
ran off from duty to church.missed the silly bus with sally because dear maxim was too far from the bus driver and couldnt hold the bus for us.argh.stupid guy.
went through the service like yesterdae.the congregation was more stirred up than before.you wont believe how rock it was.woah!a bit less exciting than the youth conference of course.haha.it was dam cool la.we all ran down to the stage to give the offering.but 2dae dam sad lor.i had not even a single cent on me.thats literal.cos i already gave like 5 bucks yesterdae nite.so i just sealed an empty envelope up.so sly.
haha.anyway.the sales at our stalls were great.esp the balloons.pple were buying in like 5s and 10s nearing the end.haha.i guess they had too many tickets and wanted to spend it asap.haha.everyone was frantically blowing the balloons.oh yah.there was these 2 retarded guys who bought like over 8 balloons so that they could breathe in the helium.dumb man.
band 2ml is cancelled.yay.i can sleep late.den go to sarah's house for prayer meet.cool!haha.
-prayer-
Michelle called at
9:38 PM
July 3, 2003
wanted to blog last nite.but my sis insisted on not allowing me online.pesky.but its my fault la.
aniwae.had a nice jap dinner last nite.haha.stuffed myself like mad.the sashimi was nice.i love sashimi.muahaha.
oh yah.i must tell the whole world this.joanna pay couldnt zip up her pants yesterdae nite.it was too tight for her!haha.it was so freaking funny.i laughed till i nearly cried.haha.and her pants are freaking loose already.time to go on a exercising spree jo.haha.no use in dieting as u always say.muahahaha.
i feel so shuang embarrassing her.haha.carnival on sun.praying that it wont b a flop.i certainly hope not.cant attend service on sun mornin cos my duty early in the morning.sigh.anyway.everyone come to ride the rodeo!haha.it should be fun la.im actually quite excited to see how things turn out.haha.
oh well.am supposed to take a ne survey tomorrow.wonder what would i do.sheesh.
-youthdayw/oconcert=notgood-