July 21, 2004
im stressed.super.not over studies.but over church stuff.
i dont think ive seen anyone stressed over church stuff except for the leaders (eg. cellgroup leaders and pastors..).ah!!
GOD!JUST HELP US!it will not be fulfilled unless God moves.
Michelle called at
10:24 PM
July 14, 2004
haha.i like reading yuyi's blog.it really opens up my mind.he is an idiot who reads so much.
Michelle called at
6:01 AM
July 13, 2004
coming back to the comp reminded me of the nite where i did my gp essay till midnight and my stupid gp teacher said all she received was gibberish.crap.waste of my time and energy
i was in guilt throughout the day.was supposed to do the devotions thing and as usual..i procrastinated.nat was chasing me throughout the day and i was running all around.but i finished it in the end.phew.
cheryl and sera are going to abandon me for the next 2 days.i've a sad life.
today's dinner was exceptionally nice.i hadnt eaten with my family for ages.haha.
Michelle called at
8:06 PM
July 11, 2004
ive found out who befriended my father.bro francis.*faints*.haha.but its a good thing i guess.can help me shuo hao hua.
Michelle called at
6:51 AM
July 9, 2004
i got a thrashing by my dad.stayed out too late for the past few days.actually its my fault la.im like pushing the limits all the time.
mon:out for buffet till late.
tues:i was home early.the only proud thing of the week.
weds:church with walls.home only at 1145.
thurs:prayer meet at smu.home only at 1030
fri:fellowship with cf at haagen daz.home only at 1030.
gosh.im a terrible kid.but the week has been tremendous.its just more and more and more spiritual things.of course with revelation comes responsibilities.a lot of planning and stuff to do.i'll share it all during cellgroup testimony.yar.God is truly good. =)
anyway.back to my thrashing.yar.my dad was complaining that he doesnt know me at all.not the whining complaints.but the scream-at-me kind of complaints.yar.i agree with him.my parents do not know me at all.they dont know what cca im in.what class im in.what combination i take.they didnt even know i dropped chinese.and thats cos i dont tell them - according to him
actually i wanted to just scream at my dad saying that i dont tell cos they dont ask.its true.ive cultivated the habit of not telling them until thing since it doesnt matter to them.its just came to my mind a scene from pri sch - they filling up those consent form craps and they kept asking whats my class and register no. though ive told them million of times.yar.childish mind la.God told me not to think of it anymore.yep.
but i just wanna say.kids are shaped by parents.their ultimate shape is determined by their parents attitude towards them.yar.think through to see if its true. =)
but.. we can choose to be shaped into God likeness too.
Michelle called at
11:03 PM
July 5, 2004
im in such terrible shape now.im having gastric pain and feel like puking at the same moment.haha.went to have buffet at brekz at the expense of bro kelvin with bro vincent,bro eric,sister olivia and of course bro kelvin.but i think im really not suitable for buffets.mayb its partially because i hadnt eaten anything since melody's party yesterday.all i had was some snacking during this morning's ac prayer meet.but i just weighed myself.43kg.thats 3kg down from the last time i weighed myself.woah.haha.
Michelle called at
9:41 PM
July 4, 2004
today was a really great day.so many wonderful things happened.
service was great.pastor talked about soulwinning.really stepping into people's life and be concerned and interested about them.something i'll really have to work on.thats the way acjc can have revival.
after that was melody's birthday party.haha.i spent the whole of last night decorating her card and ball.it was so nice i tell u.i've a flair for such thing (ha!) esp with God's anointing yesterday night.yar..i finished everything in 2 hours since i had a vague idea.the party was really great la.she was so surprised and shock.love melody so much man.shes like one of the best darlings i have.haha.aiyah.can only say i love her so much.haha.
had bs with bro kelvin after that.i was tired and stuff like that from all the yakking and acting crazy.yea.
Michelle called at
11:07 PM
July 3, 2004
hm.im so screwed.its 620 in the morning and i hadnt done any physics practices.nevermind.work by faith.hahas
had cf and choir pract yesterday.wasnt exactly that excited and all.i just lala-ing my way through everything.yongming was telling me all about israel and stuff like that.exciting.
yar.nothing much.probably just too tired to be receptive.
Michelle called at
6:19 AM
July 1, 2004
esther 4:14 "For if you remain completely silent at this time, relief and deliverance will arise for the Jews from another place, but you and your father's house will perish. Yet who knows whether you have come to the kingdom for such a time as this?"
said it all.we're given a mandate in where we are placed;acjc and ij for me.if we dont do anything..revival will definitely still occur..just not in your generation.are you placed in where you are now by mistake?never.
im so slow.i just realised this song is actually residing in my computer for centuries:
Your love oh Lord is like the oceans.
deeper than endless seas
Your faithfulness is like the mountains
and Your word never fails
glory to God.let every heart sing.
glory to God.in the highest
-highest-
Michelle called at
9:04 PM
man.i feel good.went jogging after like centuries of slacking.haha.
had a prayer meet this morning with lengkie n aunty rosalyn.it was good.she was telling us to pray for the unborn again.both spiritually and physically unborn.this kinda set me thinking.do the physically unborn go straight to heaven like what auntie rosalyn said?at first i thought they'll definitely go.but i thought of original sin.i aint too sure about what is original sin.but that just came to mind.mayb i'll ask the leaders about it.
maths today was crap.i should have done more practices.ah crap.must not regret for physics too.went to bro kelvin's house for bs with jieyun and jingxuan.i received like 4 lessons in 4 hours.heavy heavy.but im more determined to go for water baptism.hahas.and something hit me quite hard.i should be myself.not put up a facade.
haha.heard from bro kelvin that bk is in medan.lucky him while im suffering at the exams.actually i aint exactly suffering.i kinda like the exam period.darn slack.hahas.