June 30, 2003
tired.back to school already.life is not good in school.im beginning to hate it.argh.
realised that i only at at most 9 weeks to prelims.im so gonna die.must mug hard liao.and im actually writing my blog here?haha.im mad.
okie la.finally resumed my spiritual duties.but i feel like im doing it only because its an obligation not because i wanna.mayb i was too tired.hope things will improve tomorrow.
oh well.i needa sleep.i wanna rest.nitey
-zZzzZ-
Michelle called at
10:27 PM
June 29, 2003
i suddenly cant think of what to write.mental block.haha.
i woke up quite late today.nearly missed the church bus.supposed to take choir pic in the morning.haha.but didnt go until the noon shift.today's praise n worship was better.we seem to b getting back into beat.but the congregation seemed to be so dead.i nearly didnt felt like shouting amens and hallelujahs.it was just so so dead.all the pastors could sense it lor.can tell from their tone.i felt so burdened for them that this service has became like that.sheesh.pst kong was really angry and was kinda scolding lor.haha.but he did it indirectly lah.could tell it.
i was told that sarah's bdae was on tues.i felt so bad.i wasnt even told a single thing lor.argh.irritating.ryan knew and he didnt even tell me.whats more he didnt come today lor.argh.i feel like hes so irresponsible lor.should haf at least told mi so i could make arrangements right?sigh.nevermind.hope these kinda miscommunications would cut down.
went for lunch with the cg pple at kfc.treated cheuk n sally cos i got $40 back frm cg fund.gave 20 as offering.talked lotsa crap during lunch.
sarah teo n gang joined us after their meal at the foodcourt.sarah was telling us bout the game the church used to play.its dam cool lor.i think it would be a really great experience.but its abit xiong esp if its new believer.but its zai la.
went to the singapore cricket association to watch max play.when we reached he already finished.so stupid.so we just sat there n talked.i realised i knew so little bout the cg pple personally.i did so little.mayb dan's correct bout mi not able to open up to others.sigh.
just typed an email to sarah bout the prayer meeting thing.im quite excited bout it.i wanna see a revival in ij.one that would take it by storm like never before.people would start pouring into the heaven in ij uniform.it would be great.
oh well.school reopens tomorrow.life resumes.and im so dead.argh
-candoit-
Michelle called at
9:47 PM
June 28, 2003
i realised i haf been rather slack on blogging.haha.mayb im getting lazy from being online.haha.
had some stupid rehearsal at vch yesterdae.it was so freaking stupid lor.and we were so freaking criticised by that little puny thing.ya.irritating.he was dam bias lor.he purposely picked on xu n fe.cant stand him.can only take his anger out on us.wad a loser.
just sat around and did nothing for like 1 hr cos i was so freaking early for cg.haha.nice cheuk ying came out to accompany me and we went orchard to haf lunch.that stupid lengkie cheated us and we took the wrong bus and landed somewhere in stevens road.dialed pastor up to pick us up in his usual comfort cab.haha.quite paiseh by its all cheuk ying's idea (yah.im the innocent little girl).haha.
we had cg at pat's place.some function room that looked like a ballroom except for the 3 pathetic tables provided.haha.the message was great.ya.the best so far i can remember.had been missing in my spiritual walk for such a long time.sigh.
went out to watch the guys play bball after that.haha.the lights just went off halfwae lor.but they continued to play.me and cheuk were like some cheerleaders just sitting at the side with a chance of being smacked by the ball anitime.i just realised that ca and anna r great players.you wont believe how much they scored.haha.huiqi said pastor plays funnily.i think she says that hes inflexible or something like that.haha.lengkian was acting retarded and babyish.trying to relive his childhood la.haha.boon kiat was dam farnee oso.his shortness is his weakness.hahahahahaha.im so proud to say that to him too.haha.jodi was like some springing board.they were even shouting that he stayed in the air for like 3 secs.haha.
kinda ended the day late.they stopped playing only at ten.thats freaking late.i should haf left halfwae to go home.stupid mi didnt even think of the consequences.that sux.luckili my dad didnt scold me.i felt bad that i didnt set my priorities rite.
oh well.yakked so much bout yesterdae.
skipped band todae.i wud expect mr chan to start breathing down our necks."only 11 practices left!"argh.cant stand it.haha.i went for a maths lesson though.i cant seem to catch up.couldnt grab the concept and get it etched in my memory.sheesh.hope i wont lag in class.
couldnt even go to the main block with qi in case we bang into that little thing.cudnt go st gabs either cos i was in pink socks.haha.i felt so mahfan.mi n xu finished up a packet of soybean chips in the class.it was quite nice.flavoured to some mongolian chicken crap.haha.
i heard we had a special guest in band.haha.i thot hu.only teo jing ling lor.scared me.crap.heard she criticised our band.how embarrassing.but how true.muahahaha.dont care la.irritating man.band sux.
went for lunch with xu jas qi n cin.haha.cin had a short meeting with her alex.haha.heard frm qi that he practically slimmed down to 1/3 of his former size.haha.really should recommend his slimming programme to jo.she wud love it.haha.ya.cin n her alex haf a long story la.its quite funnie oso.haha.
i was reading the street lawyer by john grisham.quite nice.but his books all got some pattern one.if read too much wud feel quite sian.i can imagine wad the ending wud b like.haha.
but there was this point that they pointed out that kinda struck mi.the main character said that humanity was their main goal when most people start out at med school or law school.by the time they haf graduated they wud b working for materials instead of the ideals that they had started out with.i wonder if that wud happen to me if i start at med school.mayb i wud no longer wanna service the people out there.but instead focused on billing all the people hu haf come to ask for my help.argh.i wud hate myself if that happens.hopefully i wud keep that thought in mind.u guys shud go read the big.its cool la.
oh well.i totally forgot that today was sat n 2ml was sun.yesterdae felt so much like sat.haha.cellgroup n stuff like that.SCHOOL REOPENS TOMORROW!argh.that sux.and theres the stupid carnival on sunday.argh.rodeo ride.argh.balloons with feathers.argh.ice kachang.argh.
life is saddening.sheesh.
aniwae.cin gotta blog now.must go visit it more often
-streetlawyer-
Michelle called at
10:08 PM
June 25, 2003
my teeth hurts.i got braces on the bottom liao.had another 2 teeth extracted.i could hear the cracking when the dentist pulled it out lor.so scary!haha.
i tink jermyn is back liao.emme sent the sms bout dinner 2ml nite.haha.quite fun.wonder if he has changed over 1/2 a year.haha.oh well.hope im allowed to go though.
-weekend-
Michelle called at
8:30 PM
June 24, 2003
i missed the whole class chalet.its my fault.ya.actually didnt haf much desire to be there.mum also didnt allowed.went out too often last week.
went to penang over the weekend.haha.didnt do much there.quite sian.i finished the whole harry potter book!so shuang!haha.its dam riveting la.just kept reading and reading.its nice.i wanna read the 3rd n 4th ones to fill in the blanks.haha.its nice.cant wait for the last 2 books to be out.
ya.sian.must pluck another 2 teeth 2ml.so much more needed to mug.sick.
-harrypotter-
Michelle called at
2:01 PM
June 18, 2003
gotta make this snappy.argh.
sneaked out to sentosa with the cg.haha.it was fun.though i couldnt sing or scream.haha.wud zaosia la.the sand was soft and nice.but too artificial.haha.i feel super fat among those who stripped their shirt off.argh.not good.betta go jianfei.haha.
nothing much liao.tomorrow got chalet.sheesh.
-sniffsniff-
Michelle called at
10:04 PM
June 17, 2003
sad.i haf a sad life.im such an infected germs ball.yucks.i haf flu.cough.sore throat.and 2 teeth less.haha.that last part is lame.
aniwae.i finally returned to the dentist.after like 4 years?haha.luckili the dentist didnt scream at me.he decided i needed to extract 4 teeth to atone for my absence.haha.2 today and another 2 next week.ah.injection n pull!haha.the dentist [another one] couldnt extract the first one.she had to get some thingy to like pry it i guess.haha.duno la.but she seemed to put in so so so much energy.haha.long time since i extracted my teeth.haha.
oh well.2molo is the sentosa trip.must get toothpicks!
-sick@sentosa-
Michelle called at
8:52 PM
June 16, 2003
my throat still feel bad.argh.the mouth is so numb from some lozenges the doctor gave.sheesh.like so much phlegm in my throat lor.yucks.
argh.its a weird dae la.dont wanna sae liao.
-freakthroat-
Michelle called at
7:04 PM
my throat sux.it feels gross now.i can feel like lotsa mucus inside.yucks!worse still..i can seem to cough it up or down.haha.this sux this sux.the throat made me feel dam sick last nite at dinner.we went to jade as usual.so irritating to see all that flirting.sux man.
yesterdae's praise seemed to quiet.haha.duno why oso.must b a weird transit frm the youth conference.yilin n lili stood me up.actually its since sat la.pastor said 4.30 n 1 service r gonna b like youth conference style!no fair!i wanna be there too!we shud haf transferred service the other time pastor asked.aiyah.pastor..can we still change now?haha.
i nidda to see the doctor.i tink i will go to sarah's mum.even my aunt loves her.haha.okie.shall b gone soon
-mucusinthroat.yuck-
Michelle called at
8:26 AM
June 14, 2003
ah.my results sux.all bcoz of stupid humanities.my l1r5 doubled because of tt lor.freak freak freak.i got e8 lor!the lowest i ever got in my life.i really should go and celebrate.even mr tan said its a miracle.that sux man.haha.he oso sae the only place i can go is jjc.arg...
had band first thing in the morning.i had to go there myself coz everyone left without me.freak.i was 1/2 hour late but who cares.i didnt play coz i sound terrible (verbally.not on the clarinet).i tried to play ming's clarinet during break but i couldnt even make a sound.haha.weird man.left at 10 to help fundraising for class.haha.perlynn n xu werent allowed to leave thanx to that cheapskate mr chan.he gave us a big scolding lor.little puny crap.yah.heard they made a lot from the sales.500 plus.good sia.they know how to sell 2dae coz of the parent teacher dialogue thing.haha.
went out for lunch with lk ca cheuk daryl amoz shaun n kenneth.took neoprints too.haha.its so irritating to not understand anithing they r talking bout since im so blur.it totally sux when people r talking behind ur back.
my father wanna get his secretary to tutor my humans.as if she can do it.he is just so freaking stubborn.irritating man.he is just too self conceited.someone gotta teach him the lesson man.irritating.i already asked yuyi n lk to help me lor.i dont believe im going to do badly again.i must get 6 and get into a top jc.i wud show him i can do without her freaking secretary.
hmph.still no voice 2ml.but who cares.im gonna praise like never before.
-voicelesspitchlesscantjump-
Michelle called at
9:52 PM
June 13, 2003
im back again.supposedly energized.haha.i remembered something important last nite so here i am to blog it.
yah.i wore that pair of jeans that wud make me super zaogeng.haha.so i kinda forced the poor sick chin li to take out his sweater and let me wrap around my waist.haha.he was give me that you-are-so-mahfan look.haha.but its dam farnee la.i was laughing and begging him.he was grumbling and grumbling too.those people around us like viv kenneth liwen were all laughing like mad oso.haha.its just so crap.zhenyi scolded me after that coz poor sick chinli is sick (duh).haha.but it was a farnee part of the nite.
oh well.i nid to get to school for oral and a maths lessons.how am i going to speak with no voice.argh.might be supporting jo in her match against pauline.haha.i feel like a traitor.
-oralwithnovoice-
Michelle called at
7:06 AM
freak.my last entry was like missing.angry angry angry.haha.now haf to type my thoughts all over again.
aniwae.my voice is gone.my legs are aching and my back is like cracking.im getting old.haha.the conference was great man.screamed and screamed and jumped and danced and did all kind of silly things.but its all before the lord so its worth it.yeah!the pain were quite intense that i couldnt jump much la.but its still okie.haha.
had extreme sports tis morning.haha.dam xiong.i woke up so late.and left the house so late.thats coz i was dilly dallying at home.haha.i was directed the wrong way by the mrt station auntie and that silly boon kiat.made me walk so much at wasted like 3+ to the cab uncle.so wasteful!haha.lengkie winnie minyi n pat ran.lengkie and pat were great.haha.i didnt watch pat's but im sure it was cos shes god child.minyi got 2nd for her category but im like "oh.cool.".haha.quite emotionless la.lengkie was great.shud c the way he ran.haha.didnt get ani prize but he still completed!haha.
went for lunch at jurong entertainment after that.more like pool than lunch la.haha.i was freaking sian and cold.sneaked in cos im obviously underage.haha.the guys played and i just sat around cos im a pool idiot and dunno how to play.haha.went for lunch with sarah at the jap fast food later on.it wasnt as nice as it smelt.haha.the fried stuff they were cooking smelt dam nice.haha.but quite disappointing when i ate.mayb its bcoz i was having a sore throat.haha.pat cheuk n viv ate at pizza hut.they claimed its worth it.haha.but the guys went back to the church nearby coffee shop to buy their lunch.haha.cheapo la.
i conked out on the sofa in church.not exactly felt asleep la.haha.mi n sarah were talking about how cool it i that we actually own the building.haha.so cool to sae we haf a stake in that fabulous 48 million dollar building.its just dam shuang la.haha.i was just lying against one of the sofa and spreading my short legs out.haha.dam shuang.
after a while we went down to queue at b2.dere were quite a lot of people although its only 5.haha.like a good 2.5 hrs away frm the session lor.but we r kiasu and wan a good seat la.lengkie managed to squeeze in behind the n175 n n18 people.duno how and who cares.haha.bro patrick is so ks also.sad that we cant get pastor to help us.haha.aniwae i wasted my sweat and stickiness and time there for nothing.boon kiat phoned me and i went down with kenneth to the main audi on the basis of choir.haha.kenneth is cheat one la since he wore till quite formally.haha.but actually the dresscode was like sporty lor.how contrary.haha.bk told him off for that la.felt quite bad too.
aniwae.the gate opened after a while and the torrents of people flooded in.haha.people were running and arguing and whatsoever.we kinda got into a conflict with the other cgs too cos we were taking their seats.but no reservations allowed.haha.there was tis cg leader who asked who our leader was and i proudly said pastor yk without using that puny brain of mine.shucks.i hope pastor wont get into trouble.
the praise songs were rock man.but i was in too much pain to really jump and shout la.i tried my bestest best.haha.hope its still worthy before Him.we sang the dance clap jump shout spin song again.it was so cool lor.haha.
the talentime finalists did their rock thing again.but i wasnt in much mood to jump la.haha.tried to wave my hands and look enthu though.aniwae.the prizes for the word power was super zai lor.i shud haf taken part.sigh.first prize is dell desktop lor!nevermind.theres a next year.haha.
the message was powerful.teaching us to cross the lines of the unknown.of the pull of the world.of the positive affirmation.of the impossibility.haha.i actually forgot the "pull of the world" just now during my first entry.had to go n check my notes.feel so stupid.haha.
aniwae.there was no laying hands as expected.but its good.cos pastor said life shud not b predictable.haha.we should just flow.
the ending song was the "im on fire" song.haha.dam zai."im stepping out im breaking out im shaking all the fears off me.."haha.cool sia.had the rock thing by the finalists aka punks again.haha.it was thrice to b precise.haha.like just now..wasnt in much of a mood to really jump n shout cos of all the pain.pastor aries tried to dismiss us but to no avail.haha.we just continued clapping and singing n jumping.haha.den pastor derek tried but eventually got pulled into dancing on stage.haha.den pastor yk was pulled on stage to dance and i went berserk at that sight.haha.cheered hard and jumped up n down for him.haha.den pastor derek oso was up there.i think he was trying to dismiss the crowd but got pulled into the mess too.haha.the pastors were jumping and shouting and doing all kinda stuff and even jumped off stage together.haha.it was so farnee.the day finally ended when pastor aries went on stage and said "jie san jie san.go home go home."haha.
ya.so the conference ended in that glamarous manner.the cg took a photo and i wanna keep it forever and ever.haha.
im really grateful for my parents.they shud b angry that im out from 10 to 10 these 3 days and offered to pick me up on like 2 nites.they are the best i can ever have.of course uncomparable to my Father Almighty.=)
oh well.i feel like i just finished a compo.i gotta get to bed now.
-snorevoiceless-
Michelle called at
12:00 AM
June 12, 2003
havent been online for like 2 daes.haha.the conference was great.the power of God was in every session.woah!i jumped and screamed until my legs are aching and my voice is hoarse.haha.it it great.
the 2nd session yesterdae was wonderful.i cried so hard that it was just so hard to sing.i cried even harder when i saw gabriel and kenneth came back crying.it was just awesome.u shud b there to witness it.
yesterdae nite's session was cool too.pastor sun performed and there was like talk show between her and pst kong aka mrs ho.haha.thats mean.but it was so farnee.pastor sun's first infatuation in church was like pst yong!oh my goodness.haha.me and sarah laughed to hard that i nearly fell off my chair.hahahahahahahaha.
the session after that was great too though it was a little short.we all sat down interlocked and pastor sun just came and touched each row of people and we stood up.i could feel the spirit suddenly rushing into my body.but frankly..i couldnt feel much last nite.i think i was too letargic.
im supposed to be at the boon lay mrt station now.sigh.i tink i will take the latest bus.i woke up so late today.goodness.minyi and winnie r running.pat too!GO PAT!haha.i really hope minyi and winnie wud take the things seriously lor.i tink they came for the comp only for the prize.sigh.
oh well.i betta go get ready to leave (yeah rite..).
-last day-
Michelle called at
8:45 AM
June 9, 2003
no matrix.i watched that lousy "how to lose a guy in 10 days" instead.all amelia's fault!but she kinda compensated by paying for the neoprints.haha.we could have watched the movie if amelia decided to get the tix when we got the tix the that lousy movie.ahhh!!i wana watch matrix.
aniwae.i bought my jeans.haha.nice nice nice.had to get it altered coz im too short.haha.got 2 tops n a bag too.yay.so satisfied.actually i wanna shop more.but due to financial constraints.cant.haha.
bought the flowers for the people's performance 2ml too.couldnt find the 2 bucks flowers xiaoxian were talking bout.had to settle with african daisies.there goes my last 4 bucks.cheuk ying!u owe me!haha.the flower is nice la.yellow on the outside n orangy in the inside.nice nice nice.muahahaha.
2ml's the conference.cool cool cool.i nid to bring clothes to change for choir.aiyah.i dunno what to do also leh.haha.i quite confused bout wads happened.haha.but its gonna b great!haha
-conference-
Michelle called at
9:41 PM
haha.that stupid sims shut down by itself so im here.yesterdae service was so good.we screamed and shouted n danced like never before.haha.it was awesome!i stayed in church until 6 for nothing.haha.watched xiaoxian audrey n sally mug for their Os.the paper is today.cheuk was showing me all her irritated expressions too.haha.so farnee.her sch a bit no sch spirit la.i haf to sae that most guys have really bad aesthetic views.especially for art.the colours they choose were so pastel-ey that it looked so sick.haha.
3 days of conference coming soon.gonna rock the world!im going to get a pair of jeans n a few other things 2dae.watching matrix too.=)
Michelle called at
10:00 AM
June 6, 2003
sux sux sux.geog sux man.i just passed for geog!freak la!im so angry with myself.why i never study properly.freak!
ms yip wanna see me to talk bout my grades.gosh.im gonna die.if i still dont buck up im so not able to even get 10 points.freak!
-geog-
Michelle called at
4:30 PM
June 5, 2003
haha.finally got here.couldnt get here in the afternoon at all.hearing my stupid sister begging her fren for her declaration form now.how retarded.i feel like giving them a tight slap.so irresponsible.
aniwae.saw my emaths n chem marks.im disappointed again.its all my fault that i aint performing.freak.i really nid to mug hard this hols.
i went jogging.haha.since a real long time since i wanted to.haha.it felt good la.2 rounds around the estate.
u noe wad?pau was offered a place in rj for just 10 points!cant stand it!
chemistry rox.i meant the show by the way.haha.nice nice nice nice
-chemistry-
Michelle called at
9:11 PM
June 4, 2003
got my physics paper back.i only got a2!and its rite on the dot!freak!everyone got a1 lor.even pauline.it sounds mean.actually pauline is dam smart.afterall she got like 7th placing last year.but still..freak!!!!!!i really nid to buck up and mug hard for prelims.
aniwae.today's ajc talk sux.its so horrible!the stupid vp was like dam pesky.the school is so boring under her illustration.how retarded.they r supposed to make the school look attractive but it kinda turned all of us off.haha.what losers.even acjc offers much better scholarships.the acjc presenters are wonderful.esp that teacher who held the mic for the longest.even science teacher had pretty good command of english.haha.the ajc principal's english was bad also.like another mr chan.haha."chinese intentive".crap man.
Michelle called at
4:44 PM
June 3, 2003
haha.finally fixed my blog page.doubt anione wud actually b reading n tagging.haha.sad rite?
had the acjc talk today oso.i feel wavered between nj and acj.haha.but im speaking as if im guaranteed to b offered a place there.freak.too confident is not good.i really nid to buck up and all.
tidied my cupboards.look so clean.muahaha
-clean-
Michelle called at
10:44 PM
June 2, 2003
ah.fast one.spent so much time on the new template..again.haha.wadeva.im so fickle.
gtg now!
-dash-
Michelle called at
10:06 PM
June 1, 2003
im so tired.my eyes r feeling so much pain.sigh.went for 2 services today n i screamed like mad.i tink i praise n worship betta when in the congregation.too much responsibilities on stage i guess. the 1pm service is dam exciting oso.cos its a youth service wad.
the message was great.vision vision and vision.i wan a revival to sweep through ij.i want my frens to be saved.i want jesus to be the greatest name on earth!hallelujah.
-visionweekend-
Michelle called at
8:16 PM
cant believe im blogging so late in the nite.haha.i returned so late.at 1159.haha.jo told me to b back by 12.man.i hope no one noes how late im back.i dun wanna b killed.
argh.i cant stand it.i have dual personality.im such a fakeo!freak.
-freak-