December 30, 2003
hadnt blogged for quite long.or isit just my imagination?
haha.today's cg was good.lotsa crying since it was the last cg.actually i dont really feel much.am i just getting so insensitive to the holy spirit?but cud really feel his presence during worship lor.haha.
oh.i shared a testimony that emme said was good.haha.bout the book of zechariah one lor.yar.and pastor made everyone say to their neighbours "u r pastor's fav".haha.can guess wad isit rite?
lotsa confusion.i feel myself drifting rather consciously from others.its like..i allowed it la.lotsa thoughts again.sigh.
went to watch the bball as usual.but there were a lot of sisters today.haha.breakthrough la.we spent most time singing praise n worship songs.reminiscing bout the old songs.quite cool la.haha.oh..ca n gen r joining choir leh!cool!haha.
sarah thrashed it out with bk liao.we r going to get a talk 2ml.haha.oh.actually we had a talk by him bout drinking n mahjong.hee.expected la.
oh.sent gabriel to mrt station.or rather my dad sent him to my house n i made kalang send him to yck.hes quite a nice guy to talk with la.n not bad looking.muahaha.but..yar la.no distractions.haha.
sat at the prata shop watching emme jermyn n that hongyi eat.quite boring la.but just sit for fun.
oh.i think thats bout the day.doubt i wud b blogging much recently cos i got sims to play with liao.
Michelle called at
9:44 PM
December 29, 2003
i've uploaded the songs from the forbidden city up into my comp.haha.yar yar.im ripping :p
actually i was still kinda mad bout forbidden city this morning.but i turned to more spiritual stuff when i decided to continue with the book of zechariah after like so long.yea.so i spent a few hours on it.still got a few more discs to go.but stopped to do some follow up stuff.yea.haha.
its really good lor.a word in season.esp the part bout stealing n lying.really cut me to the heart.cos these are two vices that are still holding me in bondage.argh.i must break free from there.i have to start doing my qt n stuff like that too.im simply slacking too much.y is michelle always so lazy?argh.
yea.im still kinda scared of my granny's room.had the creeps all the time inside.hate it man.
okie.i shall go resume.hopefully can finish it soon.haha.
Michelle called at
2:41 PM
December 28, 2003
yes dwayne.we r both in the same boat.hopefully we arent sinking together.sigh.i hate to b restrained by anything.but that always happen when we do God's will la.thats my only consolation.heehee.
anyway.my dad gave me a thrashing this morning cos of last nite.i think im kinda used to it already.but he kinda scared me 2dae cos he threatened to go the church n scold pastor.scary scary.haha.
yar.i was home late yesterdae cos i went for service n we took so long to reach town to have dinner.yeah.at first wanted to take cab home.but boon kiat decided that he was going home too so took bus with him lor.oh yar.david was so sweet.he offered to come to town to fetch me home cos i told him i was going to the money changer to exchange the foreign currency i had in my wallet.haha.that was despite the fact that he was in jurong east n he was on a train.yar.that stupid boon kiat was so darn wadeva.he was asking y i rejected if not he wud haf gotten a free ride too.wadeva.
haha.yar.i was actually kinda shakened by what my dad said this morning.so i just sat around n didnt dare to go to church.but i eventually went lar.i decided that its my conviction.although i had already went yesterdae.haha.yar.so i used the money i exchanged last nite for a cab fare.heehee.
2dae's atmosphere wasnt as good as yesterdae's.but..anything la.haha.finally talked to pastor in like thousands of years.oh yar.i oso owe a lot of people money.heehee.esp for the mission trip.pastor was asking those hu arent going anywhere for 1st 3 months to go taiwan for a month.I WANNA GO TOO!I DONT WANNA GO JC LIAO.AHHHHHHH!NO FAIR!
ok.im going to whine the whole dae bout that.i wanna go i wanna go i wanna go.ahh!im going to cry liao la.nevermind.i shall go after my As.HMPH!
haha.i sound so childish.heehee.
anyway..all we hadnt seen pastor for a long time..he looks like a fishball now.i think cos of his hair la.haha.made his head look round.he looked worse yesterdae.cos his face was red.haha.so funny.
Michelle called at
9:01 PM
December 26, 2003
just came home from cellgroup concert.it was zai.
rushed early in the morning to mr sim's house to borrow a music stand.anyway..it wasnt the kind i wanted.but heck.we still used it.den had to rush back to yio chu kang mrt station to collect eunice's sticks cos i forgot to bring it.den rushed down to nus.
rehearsal was okie la.kinda crappish at times.i fell like nobody's business la.i realised everytime i had to go on stage again..i wud definitely hafta fall.haha.tsk.but the real thing was good lor.atmosphere was great.i wud haf loved to cried at emme's scene if it wasnt bcos i had another scene coming up.sigh.
love u all the drama people:
sean - c.f. the one hu had the most scenes with me
emme - big grace (the older version of me)
sarah - the bimbo whose name is staccey.eeks..
christine - the zai director.haha.acted as the convincing b**tch too.
xiaoxian n audrey - the counterparts of sarah's staccey.called akiko n britney (oh..so funky.just like britney spears.haha.)
leila - the mother hu abandoned me n the lady hu refused to adopt me.hmph!
dwayne - OUR GAY PREACHER!im quite sure hes related to that gay bishop.haha.but its all the joke la.muahahaha.oh yar..he was oso the first person in the drama to push me to the ground.tsk.
quanhan - the father with the weird accent n BENNY...haha.both equally weird n funny la.yar..hes the macho sissy.wadeva man.haha.
fengkai - haha.the newspaper girl!yay!n she gave me a coin (cos she thot i was a begger.where got look like?!).oh yes oh yes.she did emme's dance too.shes darn zai.managed to learn it so quickly.haha.
yea think thats basically all.yea.haha.the only positive reply i got was frm shaun.AW...so sweet!love ya lots bro.haha.i wud haf hugged u like sean if u were a sister.haha.
anyway.i think today's preaching was apt for me.im really just falling away from God.just serving for the sake of serving.serving only for man.sigh.wads wrong with me?!wheres the real fire within me?i really need to get it stirred up.i think God was really prompting me on that.sophie oso suddenly spoke to me bout that.actually i didnt noe what to say to her lor.i was totally speechless.luckili christine came to my help.but..its definitely something i must ponder upon.ARGH!WADS WRONG WITH ME!
i haf a feeling that im just insecure.im the kind of person hu needs lotsa attention.sigh.why cant i b just more normal?!
yar.i feel tired.will say more 2ml.anyway..everyone pray for cheuk k?!she really needs our support in prayer.remember that prayer is a weapon against devil's attack.ask..n u shall receive =)
Michelle called at
11:10 PM
December 25, 2003
just got back from sarah's place.again.haha.im shagged.had a long night..or rather day.haha.
christmas "party" was good.a lot of people turned up.had a lot of eating too.heehee.watched a lot of movies.finding nemo was first.den the tales of 2 sisters.its freaking complicated.except for parts where we screamed like mad..it wasnt very nice.watched resident evil at the recommendation of benjamin.but i tell u..that disc was uncensored.i was polluted by the freaking show.haha.screamed a lot also.benjamin n sean n the other guys were laughing like mad.hmph..watched the super pirated school of rock.haha.i fell asleep la.so it kinda sux.
we did a countdown.haha.i know it sounds freaking weird la.but we did it anyway.haha.had champagne n sparkling wine.but i didnt drink the champagne la.sean n dwayne n daniel drank a lot.sean was redder than a cooked lobster lor.tsk.that boon kiat was so irritating.after he popped the bottle..he went spraying the "wine" all over us.n i unfortunately was his first victim.argh.n i didnt bring change of clothes.so its freaking gross.
yar.another gross point.i bathed n wore back my dirty clothings.so im still really dirty now.muahaha.
Michelle called at
4:13 PM
December 24, 2003
just came home n took a quick bath.going to leave in at most 1/2 an hours time.
spent the nite at sarah's place last nite.it was good.rehearsal was good too.haha.the people cheered for me n sean's "stars of friendship n of hope" scene.yay!haha.had a good time talking with emme sarah n sean too.talked a lot a lot bout cg.realised how disillusioned i myself was.only serving for man n not for God.kinda felt very ashamed.we've gotta do something to the cg.sigh.
okie.i feel quite irritated.dunno what to blog.haf so much on my mind.
Michelle called at
1:53 PM
December 22, 2003
follow ups r so tiring.i took like bout 2 hours to do the callings only to realise that im only to submit them on thurs.freak man.
got 2 bs in a row tomorrow.but at 2 different places.hope it wud help to integrate the people.they sound rather potential.heehee.
only.obviously frm my briefness..im tired.
Michelle called at
11:53 PM
the devil is really tricky.heehee.thank God He led me out of the devil's trap.hahaha.
Michelle called at
11:27 AM
sometimes i find people quite disappointing.even within somewhere u think is perfect.but..man is simply not perfect.thats why we have to seek solace in god rite.
i was just wondering if i wud leave the church due to the disappointment.but i guess not.its simply a trial thats trying to get me off track.
Michelle called at
11:17 AM
hm.everyone was saying that im like some holy cow.okie.i added that cow part myself.haha.that was the only vocab that came to mind la.
yea.i dont mind being called holy lor.seriously.haha.im quite honoured to b called holy =) that means jesus' image is slowly reflected on me.heehee.after all to b holy is to b consecrated onto the Lord mah.yea.
im wondering if i wanna b a cgl.when i was talking to aud n sally bout sally n bk..suddenly felt God telling me to b a cgl.wondered if it was really God's voice or just my own mind.n i was wondering if the goosebumps i felt was from God's presence or just that the bus as really cold.haha.mayb i shud ask bout God bout it n talk to pastor or bk bout it.hm....
Michelle called at
12:01 AM
December 21, 2003
these few days with my parents is havoc.esp since they gave me quite a lot of cash (its a lot considered to someone who collects no allowance during hols).yea.
been out these 2 days past 10pm.rushed to church everyday for choir too.i can almost memorize my redeemer lives n king of majesty n worthy is the lamb in chinese already.
today's service 7 aka 10am service was rather empty.as compared to all the past services.service 8 was darn zai.cos my cg there mah.haha.we were the sun's fan club n we went down by the pastor's staircase.not actually that exciting since i have done that for every service thanks to choir.yea.the atmosphere was not bad.
went for bbq with cg after that..although i was scheduled to sing for the next service too :p haha.my fault my fault.it was quite pathetic la.haha.cos not enough food.had a core meeting after that regarding followup n stuff like that.
sally was rather pissed off with the cg n bk la.sometimes i feel shes rather unreasonable oso.n shes quite stubborn too.thats y i decided not to explain for bk anymore la.tired of doing that too.
went for dinner with the girls at swensens.spent all i had cos most of them didnt had enough to cover their meal.it was not bad.the baked rice was freaking filling.
oh.did i mention?IM GETTING FATTER N FATTER N FATTER!n im quite pissed at that.yea.i must stop adopting that bochap attitude towards my body.im going to end up looking like jo liao.argh.i betta start jogging n stuff like that la.but i like my scale.i haf a feeling its super cuckoo already.haha.but the feeling that it still shows my weight at below 45 is nice.
haha.miss the mission trip people.feel that its quite sad that we dont even bother to say hi to each other.at least pst kenneth is sweet enough to shout out to me whenever i see him.haha.one of the few people that loves to address me with my surname.ahh..sweet n nice leaders r always great.
Michelle called at
11:10 PM
December 20, 2003
ah.im really quite dumb.guess y am i awake now?cos stupid boon kiat asked me to wake up n go eat prata.madness.n he was laughing like mad in the phone.i thought it was something serious.tsk!
Michelle called at
12:30 AM
December 19, 2003
i haf got to b the most boliao person ever to b alive.i sat all the way from marina bay to jurong east cos i missed my stop at yio chu kang.anyone who bothers memorizing the map (me!) wud realise its a really long way.but it was fruitful.i was reading genesis again.taking in all the minor details that i wud have usually skipped.
i was supposed to pay like 2 bucks for overstaying.but thank god the uncle was real nice n just deducted 40 cents from me.heehee.
finally submitted my appeal to hc with just the min requirement.i have a feeling that i wont get the appeal.but heck la.haha.perlynn got into vj liao.YAY FOR HER!haha.im hoping that pau wunt get her appeal too.then i wont b alone in ac.but i think she'll get it.hc tennis needs her man.haha.oh..i put that i was a 1st stand clarinetist in the band.hopefully they wud need people who can attack the high notes on the clarinet.although i cant do it well either.AT LEAST I DIDNT PUT I WAS A DEDICATED BAND MEMBER..haha.i wud b "throwing" our anti-banders face if i did.heeeee.
went for choir today.met maxim-ising b*a n boonkiat on the way.saw pastor at the side staircase too.it felt quite weird jumping in that christmas hat cos it felt like it was dropping any moment.chinese hanyu pinyin was quite difficult for me to sing too.so yea...praise felt weird.mayb i shud learn to adjust for 2ml's services instead.oh yar.did i mention?im going to serve in 5 out of 9 services.okie..actually thats not a lot if i really wanna serve :p
i was just thinking when i was on the stage if i wud actually wanna proceed up the leadership in church.i mean..the only ways r by ministry or cellgroup rite?choir choir choir...i oso dunno if i wanna stick with it forever.n cellgroup..m i called to b a cgl?sigh.theres no point in thinking so much if im so lazy to even ask for breakthroughs.WAKE UP MICHELLE!
Michelle called at
8:51 PM
December 18, 2003
ac is really fine.except cheuk u noe what.
went down to hc n vj yesterdae to get the appeal forms.haha.should i still appeal to vj?they asked whats my choice no. for vj.well..its either no. 13 or no. 0.or mayb i get put no.1..before i started considering hc.haha.
then went out with pau n perlynn.we just drifted everywhere aimlessly.sad souls.bumped into joanna n anna.
thats just a portion of my sad day of my boring hols life.
Michelle called at
8:03 AM
December 17, 2003
im going ac.kinda predicted it leh.haha.although i prayed everynite for hc.mayb its god's will for me to shine there instead.but anyway..im going down to hc n vj to appeal.haha.i haf a feeling that pau wud most prob go over to hc too.ah!
Michelle called at
11:02 AM
December 15, 2003
went to the dentist in the morning.my teeth kinda hurts.haha.the rubber hand is now clear.so it looks quite nice.
went shopping with jo for aunt karen n granny's bdae present after that.shopped like mad.bought a fila bag for aunt karen n a lipstick n bracelet for granny from dfs.we felt rich.heehee.
watched love actually too.i think hugh grant is just freaking charming.colin firth also.AHHHH!!!!haha.most of the girls r quite r pretty.haha.but its quite vulgar la.tsk.
Michelle called at
9:27 PM
finaly finshed my entry on the indo trip.haha.here i wanna list a few people from the trip that i learnt a lot from:
pastor kong
he is really generous n sweet.no wonder our church leaders r all so nice.he really set the standard for us.he was really concerned bout us too.actually asked us to go to bed early on the night we bumped into him while going for a drink.haha.
pastor kenneth
he was practically like a father to me.haha.always asking me if i had eaten or slept.really really sweet.
bro francis
took care of us when the crew team returned back.looks tough but is really gentle (evident of his masterpiece of that pastor sun heart).haha.is kinda crappish n is responsible.was really concerned bout us too.
david
my new found brother.haha.took good care of me.always help me carry my stuff like my slave :p super crappish.always trying to suan me or beat me up.thank god im a girl.
the whole mission team
taught me stuff in different areas.made me open up my mind to different perspective to reality.
Michelle called at
9:16 PM
December 14, 2003
just arrived home.landed less than an hour ago from the mission trip to indo.it was great n everyday was filled with new experiences.so i shall describe my whole trip day by day..
day 1
woke up at like 430 so that i cud reach the airport by 530.slotted stacks of salvation cds in bahasa indonesia into my luggage like some traffickers.managed to make some new frens even though i was there alone.haha.took lion air,the most zai airline u can every find (argh.....) n had quite a good chat with bro jason.went straight to hotel atlet century upon arrival.anyway..their highways r really high lor.haha.like sitting on roller coaster.they checked out upon check in cos pastor sun heard that the place was really bad n insisted that everyone switched over to the hotel she was staying in (hotel muliah aka hotel majesty) which was rated 5 stars + diamonds.haha.yea.so we all just sat at the lobby for over 2 hours.or at least just 2 hours for me cos zhenyi n gang came to pick me up.i heard they waited for over 6 hours b4 they went over.yeah.anyway..zhenyi's mum brought us out for lunch (again..cos i actually already had packed lunch at the hotel) at this shopping mall.it was mee soto but it tasted weird la.had a stingy feel in the throat.den krystle n emme dyed their hair at the shop alfred recommended.rather ex..but the effect was quite good.me zhenyi n her mum went to this other more dilapilated shop but it was freaking cheap.i had a painful massage n thinned my hair.zhenyi highlighted her hair red n trimmed her hair.zhenyi's mum permed n cut her hair.n it all totalled to b about 30 bucks.heehee.had great food for dinner too.the martabak n satay.haha.freaking nice.but oily la.when we arrived at zhenyi's aunt's condo,there was a security check on the car.so the guard opened the "boot" n my bag just fell out..scaring the poor guard.haha.u shud haf seen his face.watched uptown girls but i fell asleep really soon.heehee.
day 2
watched barbie doll swan lake in the morning.never got to finish it.rushed over to pastor's conference n it was really a message in season as God spoke to all 4 of us.we prayed over each other for the schools and all in the car when rushing back to zhenyi's aunt place.den after that we rushed over to the concert venue.helped to set up the posters n pack counsellor packs.den enjoyed the concert.the turnout wasnt that marvellous n no altar call was given cos the indonesian media was present.zhenyi n emme went up to present pastor with stuffed toys too.so good...heehee.took a ride from zhenyi's cousin who came to watch the concert with their granny.ate some roadside porridge.quite amazed.wud haf never done that if i was travelling with someone else.heehee.returned back rather late n krystle went mad.shant include details since i am made to swore to secrecy.haha.
day 3
no day conference.but packed my stuff cos i was going to bunk for the night at someone else's room for the flight.went shopping at mangga dua.but not without waiting for over 2 hours at the lion air office cos the freaking airline is (its supposed to b was to b grammatically correct.BUT ITS STILL INEFFICIENT!read on to check out on indonesia's 2nd best airline) so inefficient that auntie (zhenyi's mum) had to sit there n make sure the people settle her stuff immediately.that was despite the fact that she had already called every morning to make sure they did her matters.argh.stupid airline.but shopping was quite fun.krystle n emme went mad shopping.bought lotsa bags n stuff like that.i managed to get a bag that all of us bought.haha.there was a freaking jam not only bcos of the peak hours..but because there was this freaking retard who tried to commit suicide by climbing up a lamp post.dam lame.but we were quite amazed la.haha.so we were freaking late for the concert..arriving at the same time as the concert time.searched all around for pastor kenneth to find where to deposit my luggage.ended up just chucking it at the bookstore area.yeah.the night's turnout was definitely better.response to altar call was really good too.a lot of them said they were amazed at the no. of hands up during altar call..close to 80%.pity i didnt peep.argh.zhenyi n krys got into a huge fight that kinda scared me.called pastor n told him bout it.sigh.bunked over at hotel mulia.its seriously 5 stars+diamond k.darn nice.slept with faith april n bryoni.
day 4
continuation frm day 3 since i slept only at like 2 in the morning.actually didnt wanted to sleep n thought of just staying up throughout the night since i wud hafta go down for breakfast at 430.but ended up sleepin on the couch cos i was so tired n it was so comfy.david called at like 430 so i had to rush out of bed..bathe n get changed to make it for breakfast.felt quite paiseh since i kinda woke a few of them up with the call.didnt eat since i felt sleepy n i kinda didnt pay for the room at all lor.spent a lot of time at the airport cos we really had a lot of stuff to check in.the people were kinda shocked at the amount of luggage we had.heehee.went over to the church to deposit the stuff needed for concert n some people that need to help to set up for it.den went back to hotel.was all alone in the room since my roommate hadnt come.den rushed back to the church to help.had to do a lot of stuff since the mission team was really small.had to do thousands of counselling packs n do drama n do ushering n everything la.haha.tiring la but its worthwhile for the souls.the atmosphere wasnt that good as everyone was a little conservative at the church.yeah.but i had a good time.heehee.had a dinner sponsored by the church there to celebrate the end of the missions for the year.the crews also presented hearts that they decorated for pastor sun.it was dam zai to see what they managed to do in such a short time n it was all so pretty n creative.heehee.i like the security team's the best.they had the heart sewn onto a glove.n pastor kenneth (the head of that ministry) said that with the security around..pastor wud always b protected.haha.so cute.the dancers' were the nicest cos they plucked out mirrors from their glass balls.haha.my roommate turned out to b one of a couple in the new mission team.actually the couple was supposed to b in my room - which meant i was to b a gooseberry.luckili pastor transferred the guy over to david n alfred's room.phew.
day 5
3/4 of the people went back already.only the mission team of bout 7 people, brother francis n joshua n raymond n alfred n john david n altona were left behind to support pastor kong for his next 3 meetings.the morning conference for the pastors was really powerful.but the crowd was a little weird la.haha.mayb different culture :p there was ministering of the holy spirit n there was this guy who was just struck n felt hard on the ground with a loud thud on his head.gave me a huge shock n i stood over guard him la.bro francis kinda discipled us..teaching us to b sharp in the spirit.returned to the hotel after that to haf a rest.kinda locked eileen (my roommate) out of the room cos i felt asleep.woke up 5 minutes before the meeting time n immediately rushed out.hee.the message for the revival meeting was really powerful.but the crowd again..was kinda weird.pastor did a super super super promotion..giving a free sun cd with any of his cd materials bought.man!i shud haf brought money out with me.moreover..the cds were freaking cheap lor.argh.kinda upset over it.hmph.
there was a big confusion when we went back.cos eileen was holding onto to our roomkey n she just disappeared.so i had to go to david's room to sit around first.we took the wrong key from the counter n ended up stuck outside again cos jerome (eileen's bf n david's roommate)had actually collected the key while we tried to wrong key at david n jerome's room.in the end..eileen n jerome were actually waiting for me n david at my room.tsk.while we were having dinner..i found out that i actually knew david before.hee.wad a coincidence.den we went down to check on jerome n eileen at the guys' room or rather b gooseberries la.haha.actually wanted to go out but it rained.den arthur joined us after that to b gooseberry too.actually we were all quite bright (direct translation from chinese's dian deng pao aka lightbulbs) cos me n arthur were all reading orange teeshirts.haha.den me n david went down to look for lisa n gina at the lounge.bumped into pastor kong n lisa had a autograph from pastor.me n david took a picture with pastor too.but later it seemed like the cam went cranky.really hope the pic wud go through though.haha.had a cocktail at the lounge at david's expense.it was really nice n refreshing.honey dew n cucumber.heehee.he was quite sweet to treat me when he was rather tight himself.lisa n gina went up soon cos they were tired n arthur joined us instead.bumped into pastor again.wad a coincidential day.haha.
day 6
last day in indonesia.rushed over to the church early in the morning for their service.pastor preached another really zai message.took a group photo with pastor after that before he rushed off for his flight.the makassar airport really sux.we spent like more than 5 hours waiting there.we waited for quite long before we checked in.den we were told out 1345 flight was delayed to tentatively 1545.we were panicking cos we actually had a transit flight to catch n we were in the danger of missing it.the lion air people actually said we haf only 2 choices:stay in makassar or stay in jakarta.freak man.bro francis n the other guys were so angry lor.haha.they said no way unless they were going to reimburse with hotel mulia.haha.so we ended up stoning at kfc n some of them tried to kill boredom by playing heart attack.haha.in the end cos we were so noisy..brother francis decided to let all of us just go into the airport.it was then about 1530.anyway...THE AIRPORT STINKS!i think they shud implement some law bout smoking lor.the air in that aircon-ed place was so bad that u cud see the haze in the air lor.had to breathe into my jacket to keep myself alive.i bet felice n jasmine wud haf killed themself on the spot if they were there.david helped to fan the air around me.heehee.alfred also complained like mad.n he is an indonesian himself lor.that shows how horrible the place was.in the end..the flight only took off at around 1630.freaking irritating.on the plane..the arrangement for my row was: a-arthur c-david (im sorry.i think they cant spell.so theres no actually b) d-caixiang e-joan f-me.so i was like freaking far away from david la.haha.but arthur exchanged seat with me so i cud sit next to him.the rest teased me like mad saying we're a couple.but no lah..we just like to crap with each other.haha.den it was dam weird la..in my bread box courtesy of lion air..there was tis bread in the shape of a heart.yeah.that kinda made matter worse.lameo.anyway..we rushed like mad at the jakarta airport only to find that our flight had been delayed.how anti climatic.bought a set of chopsticks that i thought looked quite nice for the cg people.but i might end up just giving it to pastor only.heehee.but my souvenir is over with david that he was holding onto it for me n he ran off with it at singapore.was kinda lucky cos i got the ticket that was upgraded to business class.sat next to arthur.actually david wanted to switch with arthur..but that arthur ah..he was too absorbed in his "rich man" life that he completely ignored david.haha.arthur was quite mad la..he was insulting those who werent so lucky as to grab the business class seats n they were so noisy that bro francis n joshua n john david n altona were so embarrassed.haha.had a rather nice talk with arthur before we finally arrived in my beloved land of singapore at like 10+.my dad actually came at 8+ only to find that my flight was delayed big time.haha.so ended up my mum n aunt n uncle picked me up.grabbed with food from bk cos i was realy hungry.
well.thats roughly the whole trip.heehee.
Michelle called at
11:41 PM
December 8, 2003
yesterday was the most treacherous day (n nite) for my whole life.both physically n emotionally demanding.
shall tok bout the emotional part first.my parents threatened to lock me out of the house because i demanded on going for choir pract.choir pract was seriously very good..learning all the nice songs n stuff like that.yar.anyway..i called home n my mum insisted that i forget bout going home.i cried on the bus when going back to boon lay mrt station,thinking bout the situation with seriously hatred in my heart.den i called pastor n i broke down again the moment i heard his voice.i really need to thank god for him.if not for pastor..i wont even know what to do.he insisted that i go home..or at least just spend the night outside my house if my parents really insist on not opening the door.yea.so i was still crying n sobbing like mad on the train like nobody's business.i swear i wud not haf done it if i was around others.it was quite gross cos i was writing a letter to my dad n i kept wiping away my tears n mucus with my bare hands.yeah.
the worst happened when i caught only the last train n obviously no more buses to go home.called pastor again n told him i cant get home cos theres no bus n he went "HUH?!michelle ah..".thats the first time i haf ever heard him say that.i felt so immature at that time.to think i kept counselling people about such matters n i insist doing such stuff.im the dumbest kid every alive.he asked me to call boon kiat to send me home.yea.so he came n sent me home even though it was like past midnight already.wanna thank god for boon kiat too.
yar.luckili my mum opened the door for me.called pastor to reassure him that im safe.at first i didnt dare to go into the room n sleep.i just sat on the stairs n fell asleep there.den my grandaunt came n spoke to me for a few seconds b4 i decided to go in.yea.so that ended the childish moment of michelle.
okie.im feeling upset just thinking back bout it.argh.how can i b so dumb!the worst thing was..i actually contemplated calling him instead of pastor.luckili i didnt.sigh.
oke oke.enough of such sad stuff.shall talk bout amazing race..the tiring part.yea.my back nearly broke.im going to insist on being made a gamemaster next time.haha.but my group was pretty marvellous.im the only ijtp girl..with the rest being st nicks.yea.they r rather nice pple.but quite cheena still.haha.
oh well.i guess i gotta pack for tomorrow's trip.
Michelle called at
11:59 AM
December 6, 2003
just read cheuk's letter.haha.going to reply with one soon.i'll do it asap.haha.so interesting.muahahaha.
yea.came back frm drama pract.it was quite good.little blunders here n there..but its basically well done la.just need more improvements.tis whole week thats coming up is going to b rather slack..cos most of us r going for missions.dear sean has asked me to get him a cross when he didnt even get me anything frm kl.cheapo.but nevermind.i shall b nice as usual.haha.
was quite pissed with my mum just now.cos she refused to go to jo's performance.she kept coming up with lame excuses that she shudnt haf bothered with esp since im a band member myself.wadeva man.but i kept telling myself that i musnt blow up cos im "little Christ".so i kept praying within my heart that God will just take over n not allow me to explode.kinda worked la.haha.
oh well.2ml's choir is frm 8 to 11.wonder if my parents allow.tsk.
Michelle called at
7:16 PM
i realised church workers r really zai.i think they work the most hours among all the admin people.pst was saying that sis wenling reached home only 7 yesterdae morning n rushed out again to work at 8.she repeated the same yesterday night.man.i think i wud breakdown if it was me.sheesh.
even though it seems so tiring,i still wanna aspire to work in the church office.how exciting it wud b.haha.
anyway.boon kiat's family is so weird.their car plate coincides nicely with their surname.how queer.haha.i dont think singapore has pay as the car plate.
Michelle called at
8:48 AM
December 5, 2003
just came home.had a good time fellowshipping with bk n pst in bk's car.yar.bk sent me n pastor home.pastor was trying to keep me awake with his trick questions.cant believe i fell for so many of them.haha.at least i got one right!yea.pastor set a goal for me.20 frens for christmas.it must come to pass.
cooked spaghetti for myself with vermicelli.wasnt tt bad.cos i used a lot of sauce.
was dam pissed b4 i went for cell.lost 50 dollars at who knows where.yea.i arrived at the foto shop only to realise that my money was gone.rushed home n still couldnt find it.cried over the fone when telling mum.she gave me 30 bucks.but it wasnt even enough to pay for the fotos.it was like 55+.madness.my fotos only took up 2 rolls of film..just a note to those who think im too ego n take too many pix of myself.heehee.
anyway.rushed down to nus after that.had cellgroup n drama rehearsal.the band was quite good la.of course with space of improvement.that phrasing sounds weird but heck.i have more scenes added to me now.but sean insist that they r all quite r(a).dam like him la.cos the opposing roles r always him.haha.
well.cant wait for 2ml's drama.get to cry n trip n fall n memorise more.yea.fun play :p
Michelle called at
11:27 PM
i feel fat.as usual.esp since i've been pigging out like nobody's business.i think office work is just not my piece of cake.im sure i ate more during office hours than im out with my friends.hmph.
dont dare to collect my prom photos later.mayb i shud just go n hide it in some corner of my cupboard.SO EMBARRASSING!
cellgroup later.kinda looking forward to it.i betta not get sian later on n decide not to go.im always doing that.
oh.something really embarrassing happened yesterday.haha.cos i slept on the job at my granddad's office (who cares bout tt.its my parents' company anyway) n my mummy couldnt find me.so she left without me.hmph!luckili she didnt travel too far.haha.so my dad made her turn back n pick me up.so funny :p weird stuff always happen to me.haha.
oh well.i shall go make breakfast now.im hungry.after..I JUST BROKE FAST!haha.sorry for my lameness.its due to dwayne's negative influence. hahaha.
Michelle called at
8:50 AM
December 4, 2003 my thoughts
In just a blink of an eye, my ten years in IJ is officially over (or maybe not until 31st of December 2003). I used to wonder when would this day, where I would get to move on to somewhere more interesting than this IJ environment that I have grown too familiar and hence bored with, finally arrive. Now that it is here, I wished that it never came. Or at least be late by another year, so that I can truly treasure the times in my alma mater that I have always failed to cherish, despite a decade in the place. Being a typical youth, we would not realise the importance of something until we have finally lost it. Words of advice are always dismissed lightly and no matter how saturated a speech is with regret, we never take heed to the mistake, thinking highly of ourselves and refusing to admit that we, too are falling into the same trap that our predecessor have forewarned us of. I speak from my own experience, now that I have lost what I would never regain : memories of IJ.
Michelle called at
9:24 AM
December 3, 2003
im supposed to b embarrassed.i made the whole family to wait for me to sing my sister the birthday song :p
felt bad.was supposed to go to the beach with bunch.but ended up sleeping in n refusing to get out of the house cos i couldnt find my shorts.IM SO SORRY BUNCH.ITS ALL MY FAULT.*bows head in repentance*
anyway.i was at mountbatten area when i decided not to go.cos had drama at 5 n stuff like tt.so i wud prob b just spending 5 mins at the beach n wud hafta run off.so..i did the stupidest thing i hadnt done for so long.i walked all the way from the old changi road area to the concourse.in case people didnt realise..its rather far.i took like an hour?haha.mayb cos i was strolling la.took the time t familiarise with the drama script.was like talking to myself the whole way.haha.i think walking around is quite fun.
anyway.walked around concourse to check out prices.its all quite ex.but im quite sure i'll get the candy sticks.yar.for christmas.heehee.
drama was not bad.a lot of insulting here n there.mostly between me n sarah n sean la.cos we all haf scenes against each other.haha.the one with sean was esp funnie.he kept muttering mean stuff under his breath.as if i cant hear.haha.oh well.tis drama is going to b a success.heehee.
oh.im dam angry with jody.he said i sound like a malaysian.DAM!thats just like when selvam said xu looked like a malaysian scholar (though its quite impossible.as what everyone thought.so it isnt just a personal opinion.heehee :p).ahh!!he also said i sound dam cheena.okie.im going to stop mixing chinese with my speeches.n im going to brush up on my english.freak freak.its not good to sound like a malaysian.
Michelle called at
8:26 PM
December 2, 2003
my new template is finally done.i nearly died doing it all.anyway.my archives are at the end of one of the scrollbars.tired.
Michelle called at
11:53 PM
im officially announcing here that kitkat chunky sux.i mean..its total deprivation of relief to the chocolate addicts who unfortunately have to put on oral correction devices aka braces.okie.in short..I CANT BITE IT!*whines*so irritating.i had to like shove it to my molars to bite and the bar is so huge that i cant even place just the breadth into my already stretched to the maximum mouth.i took the choco bar in and out of my mouth during my first bite (i took like thousands of tries on it before i finally succeeded) n it was totally gross.all salivary and hole-y..cos of my teeth mark *sticks tongue out* haha.
okie okie.i noe i haf been complaining that i hate choco n stuff like tt..but im in total desperation now!im so bored n all i haf is princess diaries book five to entertain myself.hmph.i haf my bible too of course.heh.
okie.i was just interrupted for a sec by my dad's secretary cos she needed to use the comp for a moment.oh.did i tell u all im in my dad's office now?yar.im a child labour now.can someone please call up the ministry of manpower n sue my parents for me?tsk!haha.sorrie.im just going mad from all the slacking.haha.yar.actually its not bad la.i still get paid for slacking.hahahahaha.
yar.so all.please do not give me kit kat chunky for anything (eg. christmas or chinese new year (i wont mind trading the kitkat for an ang pow though) or valentines (thats so unromantic!i'll take it n throw it on ur head!) or bdae or labours day (go n give it to the women in labour la.dont irritate me)).okie.i shall stop crapping since im really going mad thinking of rubbish.haha.
i shall try to finish that half bar of choco left.or shud i bring it back in feed my dogs?oh wait.choco is like poison to dogs.ALL THE MORE BETTER!I CAN KILL THEM NOW!MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA.(sheesh.says sane michelle)
Michelle called at
2:23 PM
December 1, 2003
im really scared now.allen kept telling me tt cant get into hc with 10.okie.im just praying that all the sane people wont dare to put hc as their 1st choice even if they got 6 pts.I MUST HAF FAITH!
Michelle called at
9:03 PM
at dad's office now.was helping my mum with those workers' punchcards.so many to settle.wonder how my mum survived these few years with them.
this visit made me do a self check.my granny was talking happily about the good old days when my dad n his siblings helped did holiday jobs everytime.im such a pampered kid.tsk.but its even more upsetting to see the current condition of my family now.it saddens my heart to just think bout it.it must have been worse for my granny.esp since shes already so old.
finished my work early.so i was reading psalms.never knew it was so interesting.i think i will love the word even more now.n love god so much more.